On this day

October 11th, 2008 by Stuart


I’ve learned a lot over the past two years.  Time has a funny way of making you cope.  You may not always understand, not even two years on, you may just simply learn to be.  Especially when be-ing is all there is to have had.

Two long years with so much that has happened.   Oh for sure, there has been moments over the past couple of years that bring a sense of peace and calmness about me.  But two very long years that I am sure are etched in my face.

I’m about to call Mark’s parents, to let them know I am thinking about them today.  If Mark were around these past couple of years – I am sure we would have had many laughs, many head shakes, many many beer nut jokes that would have been told.  Two long years that have found me fewer in friends,  fewer still in family and as I look around – really not that much familiar looks me back.

I’ve been running this post through my head for a number of hours now, off and on in my head and I can say with certainty – the way it has evolved was not a way I had thought.   I still think of Mark often, things I wish we could joke about, laugh about.  Over all, I still do not get why it was his time.  And I think – maybe going when you are happy isn’t such a bad way to go.  There are certainly harder times and ways for it to happen.  Maybe the two years has not brought me anymore knowledge after all, but at least it did not diminish my memories.

Since Foxxy passed on, I have lost several other people that all have a unique place in my history, all people I miss terribly and all people I wish did not go.  For that, I’ll create a new section here for all who have meant so much.

But today,

I miss my friend Mark.

October 11, 2008 · Filed Under Family

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3 Responses to “On this day”

  1. Bonniebleweyes on October 11th, 2008 4:12 pm

    Hgsssssssssssss Stu,its all i can say at the moment,except im thinking of you and Marks Mum and Dad and have planted a beautiful rose today for him and its called Loving Memory.xxxxxx

  2. ole cousin sue on October 12th, 2008 1:09 am

    I like to think that when I am missing someone who has gone … when I miss them so acutely that it is a physical pain – I like to think they are right next to me and that on some level my spirit knows that. It helps me pass through those sad times. Maybe it will for you too.

    Love ya Stoogie.

    S

  3. Stuart on October 12th, 2008 9:07 pm

    thank you Cuz Sue, love you too. and thanks for the comment Miz Bonnie.

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